Animal, Anger, and Attitude

First things first, I hope that the corny title doesn't throw you off for the tone of this post. It will make sense in the long run. -- So, the past 72 hours (not really, just anytime I'm in my car) I've been listening to Cassadee Pope do an awesome cover of Motley Crüe's "Animal." While you may think finding inspiration in a song by the Crüe is seriously deranged, it really hit me today. 

The chorus sings, "It's an ache that never heals. It's the deepest cut you feel. It's the thing in you that feeds the animal in me." // While the song (I believe) is written about a relationship, I really relate to it on a whole other level. 

So here's the backstory. -- I get really angry when I see that someone has something I want, and that anger doubles when I can tell that they are unappreciative of what I would love to have. This is a reoccurring thing in my life, specifically with people close to me. They live their lives and don't even realize how great they have it. "It's the thing in you that feeds the animal in me." I am allowing these things to build up inside and consume my mind, as well as waste my time. I have spent so much time attempting to control what is beyond me, that I have become the very thing I despise, and have neglected the blessings of my own life. 

Proverbs 14:30 A sound heart is the life of the flesh: but envy the rottenness of the bones. 

My hope and prayer is that I can overcome my attitude towards things beyond my control, and learn to be more appreciate of the people and situations in my own life. 

-- Olivia